what is ur deepest fear? - coach carter

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Timo Cruz

Justin Timberlake What goes around....comes around

Justin's What Goes Around

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)

road block

smlm aku kena amik aida kat kuantan..pegi lepas keje and maghrib tu duk lepak kat umah makcik aku kat air putih...satu bende yg aku suka sgt pegi umah makcik aku ni sbb dia sokmo masak2 sedap2 tiap kali aku dtg..tp sian ar dia sbb tiap kali aku dtg dia mesti nak msk..so smlm aku gi redah jek umah dia..sbb nnti mula la dia nak masak itu ini...heheheh so kena bebel gak ler..sbb x kasitau nak dtg...tp dlm2 duk bebel xtau nak kasi aku mkn ape tu ade gak dia suruh aku mkn pulut cicah ngn isi temosa...adeh..mane leh mkn sikit jek...dia msk sdp...plus ratah lauk ikan kerisi goreng..hehehheeh abih diet aku..hehhehe..aku mmg suka mkn ikan goreng makcik aku nih..sebb dia letak kunyit byk...best..hehheheh..eh terliur la plak..hehhehee..pastu duk la melayan anak2 dia yang suka ckp x henti2...hehhhehe riuh umah..

then aku timing la nak balik sbb aku nak tgk citer ugly betty kat umah...alih2 silap timing rupanya...mase smpai kat umah tu punya la aku yakin citer br nak start..rupanya..baru abih..hhehheheh..

on the way aku nak balik umah tu rupanya ade road block..lame gak jam..sebab byk kete..aku pun mmg yakin la lepas sbb mane ada nak takut ape2kan..sume cukup..lagipun kebanyakan kete dpan aku pun sume jpj tu lepaskan je..dah tu bila time aku dia suruh tg skjp..pastu dia pndag kawan dia..then dia tiup wisel..then dia ckp..parking tepi ye cik..ha?..mula la aku nak berdebar ni..lampu aku x nyala ke sebelah..mcm2 la..berdebar guek..pastu jpj tu tgk la lesen ngn roadtax aku..pastu dia lepaskan aku je la...heheheheh mane ade papepun..ceh..hampeh..buat den berdebar jek..

nak jadi citer aku ni sokmo sgt kena thn jpj..sokmo kena parking tepi..sokmo kena tgk lesen..tapi sokmo kena lepas jek..hehehehhe..xtau la nape..maybe dia tgk muka aku cuak kut..or dia tgk muka aku cam org br dpt lesen kut..meaning to say..muka aku cm bdk2 kut...bdk2 br dpt lesen P tapi x letak stiker P...hehehheh perasan..

esok nak balik bercuti umah mak...seronoknya...lame dah x balik umah mak..heeheh..keje mmg tgh byk..tp dlm tgh2 byk tu leh lagi tgk citer one tree hill kat internet..heheheeh..menggunakan segala kemudahan le sgt...jht gak aku nih..hehehe..

p/s 'keep holding on'

busy busy

arini start kelas..so basically aku kena ngajo budak junior, separuh senior and yg paling senior...bdk2 junior biasa la bdk baru so ape yg kita ckp dwang akan dgr la..campur lagi dwang nyer semangat nak belajar tgh tinggi cam langit...bdk2 separuh senior ni pun bese la..dulu dah ade pengalaman ngajo dwang sem ni kena ajo lagik...perangai tetap sama je..tapi aku janji ngan diri aku keadaan akan jadi lebih baik dr dulu..tis also a challenge for me untuk tgk aku tahan lagi x ngajo bdk2 ni..bdk2 senior aku mmg xpenah ajo ler..so sem ni subject yg nak kena ajo dwang pun subject baru so takut gak la...arini kelas sederet dr pagi smpai petang..letih den...
keje berlambak nak kena sipkan...attendance bdk2 pun aku x kuarkan lagik...printer ni tah biler nak ok aku pun x tau..spoil tul skang...susah nak pegi print sana sini...hehheeh x baik merungut2..nnti keje x berkat lak...hehhhe..ari khamis nak balik cuti raya cina..leh lepak lame kat umah mak..hheheheh aku skali skala balik tenangkan fikiran..eceh..tah mende yg aku nak tenangkan pun x tau ar...
life ok...

wish list

work nowadays is quite busy...i have to prepare all the modules as the class is going to start this week..plus i have to teach new subject for tis semester..i really started to enjoy my work here..not that i didnt enjoy it before but tis time around i kinda like it more than before hehhehhe....
my life is ok..sometimes i felt like i had a very boring life but hey..it's only boring if you want it to..hehhehehe i promised to have more selfworth of myself and love myself first before i can love other people..
i actually have my new year resolution or wishlist and i know it's been 1 month + 11 days but i still want to list it down here anywhere..:)

- tis year i wish to be a better servant of Allah
- tis year i wish to be brave. Brave enough to voice out my opinion and brave enough to stand up for my own principles
- tis year i wish to save more
- tis year i wish for a better career. all tis while i've been putting all my energy to search for something more out there, that maybe in a slight opportunity i overlooked what i can achieved here. so i'm going to give it a try and give the best of me
- tis year i wish for love. i wish it will come again and i promised myself that i will not let myself to be consumed by those feelings all over me. i have learned how to put where my limits are.

so..we'll see how many that will happen up until next year..gud luck to u azura!

Kegagahan Wanita

Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan, tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan. Perempuan yang gagah, adalah :-

1)Perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan
2)Perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan
3)Perempuan yang tabah menangung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan
4)Perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi segala keinginan

Gagahkah kita?

my true love...naley

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what is L.O.V.E?

i had a chat with our chairman yesterday in the pantry..i rarely talk to him coz i was considered as newbie here..so ngn org lain dia mmg bese tegur2 ar..ngn aku ni cuma ckp2 gtu je...so td mase borak ramai2 mmg kuar ar topic bab kawen2 + boyfriend + bla bla etc...hheheheh bese la tu dia mmg suka ngusik staff2 pempuan kat sini pasal bab2 ni..and then suddenly dia ty la kat aku?WHAT IS LOVE?...aku pun jawab la...'it's about accepting the other party for whoever and whatever he is...bla bla bla..etc'..hehehhheeh..tp dia terus cross ckp aku..'if that's what people believe what love is they are willing to give everything to the man..including ur body'..ha..that just really strike me..betul gak boss aku ckp ni..'coz love itself is blind'..he continued..u will do anything for love..u dont care what other people might say bla bla + etc..trust me..hehhhehee..
pastu macam2 la kate yg dia ckp...yg membuatkan aku terpikir sejenak...eceh..poyo jek aku nih...ehhehehe

one of the things that my parents taught me is being independent..after i finished my primary school aku terus kena antar masuk asrama..mase tu Allah je la yg tau ape perasaan aku..mmg la kat luar aku ni nmpak cm ganas..kuat..keras kepala..keras ati..bla bla..tp bila dah duk jauh tu..mau nak nangis ari2...tapi cuma mase tu aku pk..klu aku wat perangai contohnya lari dr asrama ke ape ke..nak mintak pindah sekolah biasa semula ke ape ke..sume tu require mase, duit, cuti ayah aku, duit minyak, letih, bla bla etc..buleh malukan mak ayah lagi ke ape ke..sian la mak ayah aku..sian dewang anto aku jauh2 masuk sekolah asrama beli mcm2 brg kelengkapan..sume la..so aku decide nak senyapkan je mulut aku...tapi kalu ikut ati mau aku lari dah..menangis tiap2 ari ke, x makan tiap ari ke..hehhehe ..benda2 ni sume berterusan sampai aku masuk u n everything..aku mmg belajar la idup berdikari ni..tapi kadang2 nak gak nangis..sebb pk2 balik x byk quality time yg aku spend bersama ngn mak n abah..skang dah keje lagi la..duk umah sendiri dah...kena byr bil+sewa sendiri le..x sempat nak betul2 bermanja ngn mak ngn abah..tapi aku selalu tanam dlm ati that everything happens to us pasti ade hikmahnya..kita dlm process belajar mengenai kehidupan ni..so bese la mcm2 la yg kita kena hadapi...hehhehehe aku ni dah byk melalut ni..ape kaitan ngn tajuk entry aku nih..nnti jap aku cek...

so part of being an independent person, i have to look out for myself...mak n abah dah beri kepercayan untuk buat decision sendiri bla bla ..etc..and dewang trust aku untuk pandai2 jaga diri..dewang tau anak dewang tau bezakan antara baik ngn buruk.bla bla..etc..tapi living in tis world yg penuh pancaroba..eceh..macam2 la godaan yg dtg..and bukan sume yg aku boleh tahan..kdg2 terlalai gak aku untuk seketika..heheehe contohnya..mak sokmo pesan jgn boros...tapi kdg2 aku terboros gak..beli tu beli ni..mane leh tahan beb..kadang2 bila ade duit ni..mula la nak beli mcm2..kdg2 benda yg aku x penah terpikir nak beli pun aku beli gak...heheheh tapi aku bukan nak citer psl godaan dlm berbelanja ni untuk entry kali ni...

part of being able to take care of ourselves, we as human will create our own principles as a guideline for us..so selagi kita ikut those principles insya Allah kita buleh jaga diri kita..ok..dlm mencipta principles ni aku rase xde betul xde salah..as long as our principles ni x lari dari ajaran agama kita kira ok la tu...hehehhe..so seumur hidup aku ni..mcm2 la prinsip yg aku cipta and ade...kdg2 aku ikut..kdg aku x ikut..hhehheh tapi selalunya bab2 hukum halal haram memang aku ikut la..mane leh x ikut..hehhehehe

so berbalik semula pada kenyataan boss aku yg kat atas td psl 'willing to do anything and to give everything to the other party because of love'...aku pk2 balik..mmg bahaya la cinta ni kalu kita x pandai jg diri..and sometimes mase ni la baru kita dpt tau sejauh mana kekuatan diri kita..ye la..kalu bab syg ni mmg kita sanggup la wat ape saje..kalu kita x kuat mcm2 la boleh jd..so i'm sure i got my lesson learned dlm bab menilai erti2 cinta nih..eceh....and thank to Allah i never go beyond the limit..nauzubillah..kalu bercinta ni lagi byk bwk keburukan pada diri aku, aku bersyukur sbb Allah tarik nikmat bercinta tu dr aku pada mase aku tgh alpa..sbb masa kita alpa ni la bila dtg bende2 yg buruk baru kita akan teringat semula..baru la kita berpijak kembali ke bumi yg nyata...n macam2 la kita buleh belajar dr setiap kesilapan kita ni..

so dari ape yg kitorg bincangkan semalam aku dpt buat satu kesimpulan la dlm bab bercinta ni..love is when u will never give urself up to the person that u love..love is when that person accepts u for whoever u are..love is when u dont have to be someone else that you're not but someone you are..dan macam2 lagi la..hehhehe..tp ni je yg ade dlm kepala aku skang..ok la..smpi sini dulu..so long, for now..

p/s: ari ni nak gi tdo kuantan..gaji dah masuk ni mula la nak beli macam2...hhehehhe tgk?....godaan sudah dtg..hehehhee